She knew she was leaving. She wanted to be near me.
So I took her to KL on 8 June.
Our last picture together.
"It's ok doctor. We understand English."
"It is I who is bad with languages."
"Multiple tumours. Terminal. Within this year. Take her home. Make her comfortable."
I finally told her. "Sakit macam Kak Jue. Doktor bagi 6 bulan."
She said she wants to move to KL to be near me.
Anything you want, Mama.
Then she took out her necklace & put it around my neck.
And I was thinking, "I must tell Kak Jue this."
My dearest sis,
My cancer cells in my stomach area has spread it is like a weed now n also in my lungs.
I hv been out of chemo 21/2 months lady was end of April .
Though I stopped chemo but I choose alternative medicine n also tried acupuncture . I am happy going for acupuncture .
Now that after the scan results is worst I am asked to continue chemo treatment by my own oncology .
To tell you something I hv given up hope !
I don't see any hope for me to continue chemo except I ll be more weak and sick going for chemo !
I am in pain dear I took painkiller and it is form of morphine.
Suddenly I feel I hv no use to anybody anymore I don't look forward to anything anymore
I told God I'm ready ..
I don't know how long I can handle my pain seriously I am so tired of being sick ..
If I go out to friends place I always the topic of discussion n I hate it ..
Please help me I am so sad now ..